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| [Thursday June 2009] |
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I can always rely on old livejournal to distract me from doing what I should be
anddd making me sound a lot more pensive and insightful than i really am.
but alright, realistically, no one really uses lj anymore, so time to be candid: - i have such a FUCKED UP tendency to avoid the things that are most important for fear of failure/disappointment. oh WOW, i'm even doing it at this very moment. i KNOW it's bad, but i almost think it's too late to change.
- I don't care who you are, it's so easy to feel like SHIT for not looking like megan fox or whoever the fuck. i get it, she's hot, but damn, it sure doesn't make the rest of us feel adequate or to standard.
- since being single for the first time ever, i'm really finding out what i want/don't want in a guy, and it's kinda tight. but i also don't like to discriminate or rule out people necessarily just because of one little quality they lack/have.
- moving into a house and having my own room for the first time is exciting. but what a fucking BITCH it is to pack shit up and clear out everything. it's seriously overwhelming, i really would rather just throw everything away and start anew than go through all my crap and load it into 439853498 boxes. NO THANK YOU.
- dogs OWN cats by EVERY metric. DGAF about those fucking bitchy ass felines, dogs are LOYAL, FRIENDLY, FUN, ACTIVE COMPANIONS. and EVERY time someone says their cat is cool, it's because they have DOG-LIKE tendencies.
- i still don't know WHAT THE FUCK i want to do with my life. i know i want to be happy, i know i want to help the world someway/somehow, but i am so lost as to what exactly i can do to get there. and as always, afraid to fucking fail and never make it.
- i need to pray more. i really, really, really do. not just to ask for things, but to be thankful for the fact that i'm alive and breathing and capable of anything. i almost feel scared to pray because of how i guilty i feel for having not for so long.
anyway, thank you livejournal for existing, this really did help. or, while I'm at it, thank you GOD-- for the internet, for megan fox, for relationships, for my new house, for my dog, for my future, for everything.
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| [Saturday November 2006] |
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holy fuck livejournal.
you probably would've been useful last year during my many breakdowns.
anyway, whocares, it's senior year now.
( i want to be happy )
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DEAREST MOTHAFUCKING JULIE,
i lied. i wanted pepperoni on that mother fucker. lol. but i still THOROUGHLY, as i made evident by my clean plate, enjoyed it. i fucking love you. and i think it's really great how regardless of the time frame in which we haven't spoken or seen each other, IT DON'T MATTER. no awkwardness or hang ups, just a damn good time.
and texting is so dangerous these days. or unhealthy. haha fuck, or just funny. cuz my sister accidentally texted my DAD instead of her boyfriend, now ex, whom my dad didn't even know about. it was a knee slapper BITCH SLAP to her face for everything she's done to me. God is good.
haha and fuck cheapness or whatever, i fucking love target. can that be our next mission? just go there and find shit. and their bathing suits are GREAT, i kid you not, ive loved them since like 7th grade. haha i got a bikini top there 2 months ago. fuck, that reminds me, i left it at yan's house.
no, omg, that guy at tmobile, or well, FUCKING ALLL OF THEM, was so not helpful. wtf? they acted like i had to earn the right to be helped. i wanted to throw the ball at his face. just lay him out. but, i did it mentally,and it was satisfying enough, so yeah, i didn't. lol.
we should go swimming and play with the green ball or something. fuck, a pizookie does sound good.
i'm leaving for san diego tomorrow. I'M DREADING IT. blah. write back and tell me how you are and if you could do ONE thing in the world what would it be.
i want to pull a motherfucking crazy, fully strategized heist. movies get to your head.
♥
RUBINA
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| [Monday January 2006] |
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Rubina Graduates
Are you tired of feeling like sh*t? Do you wonder if there is more to life? Do you not remember the last time you smiled? If you answered "Yes" to these questions, I may have the solution!
It's called Rubina returning to Alemany for the second semester of her junior year and graduating her senior year too!
Attaining this solution is not easy, my friends. She needs YOUR help! All you have to do is sign the petition!
A petition will be going around the Alemany campus and all we need is a signature! You can also give me money and you can pretend to buy this lovely t-shirt! All proceeds will go to the Providence Breast Cancer Research Center.
( more info plus a t-shirt! )
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